~MY OFFICIal Defeat
I am going to slack around the house reading books and watching all the korean dramas i can get my hands on and helping out with the chores at home. Plainly because i cannot find a job. WHY? Because i can only work for a month before i need to head back to school. That is what hurts. Not the rejection but because i was excused for such a stupid reason. Then the next time i can finally find a job, i will lack the experience they need. I want and need an enriching holidays. It was the thing that kept me going during the examinations. A little girl's dream to go places and do big things.
My parents dont need me to work and they feel its okay if i stayed home during the holidays. But it sucks when you dont reach your goals like failing Chemistry even when you tried your best. I know that there isnt anything big about working and all that stuff said that you would be working for the rest of your life. But i set a goal and failed to reach it. I dont understand defeat enough. Had too little of it, will need more.
Now that its going to be 1st december tomorrow and as days draw nearer, it gets harder to find a job.
I will go into voluntary work. At least i spend my holidays doing something useful. furthermore, they dont need you to slave at their place for 6 months.
Sun tanned on: 4:02 PM