~The long awaited one
Hms it looks like i have not been blogging for some time.......
What else other that work work and more work. Some times i feel like a lost sheep yet some times i feel like i have things all planned out and this is all the motion thati have to go through to reach that aim. Some times i feel empowered, some times i falter.
In all this craziness, its like a shrill of silence. It reminds me of a painting "the scream" by Much (i think i might have mispelt the name) It may be so chaotic, but i feel like letting out a silent scream because its a quiet world in me, yes of course, because i feel lonely.
Friends are not exactly the same any more, long ago are the times when we could just hang out together purely as friends, purely as friends with no conflicts, purely as nothing more complicated than friends.
Some times i feel like im stuck in the middle. In the middle of friends, in the middle of all the work, in the middle of things....
I dont know if the saying that the climb to the top may be lonely, but i hope it will not. This loneliness kills and i might soon turn deaf from my scream.
Learning to make friends with myself. In any case that its a lonely marathon, at least i hope i will not lose myself.
Sun tanned on: 5:22 PM